So after a few attempts I have finally finished writing the song 'Diamonds' for my assigned role model, Suzanne Dugmore for the Beauty Unseen Charity Gig in October.
This was a hard brief for me not only because it was my Mum I was writing for (so naturally I felt the desire to please and deliver), but also because of the content I was writing about. This was a deeply personal and emotional topic based around my Mum's journey when she had a brain tumour when I was in my teens. This was her story about what she experienced though the physically, spiritual and emotional journey through unknown pastures. And because it was HER story to tell, was exactly the main reason I found it so hard to write for...because I was there too.
A drizzly morning last Spring I went to my folks house, my son playing happily in the lounge and my Mum showed me her interview for Beauty Unseen. I have known this story for many years yet this provoked so many new questions in me to ask my Mum, because suddenly I realised I had experienced her story through my teenager perspective which came loaded with all the circumstances and challenges of my own life, that I couldn't have witnessed her story through her adults eyes.
The main thing that stood out was the passage of time was so clearly distorted in my mind. I had experienced Mum telling us about the brain tumour, the surgery and bit of physio and some support and then after a relatively short period of time after that we moved to a new place away from our long term family home but were back to 'normal'. Albeit with a few changes such as my mum being deaf in one ear. However when I spoke to my Mum she explained actually the months and years it took to recover and adjust to the permanent changes plus the struggles people don't always see.
Mum made a choice and this was heavily based around her faith and that choice was to live. Not struggle with but live. And this is where I had to to keep reminding myself of Mum's perspective and views though the song. Through her journey she has flourished as an artist and used it as a tool of healing.
I am pretty pleased with the result and will be in the recording studio in 4 weeks to record it ready to launch at the live gig in October. Last week we had a rehearsal for the live show and sketched out of lighting plan, choreographed the performance and tried to fine tune the dynamics and any tweaks to be made. For information on tickets please visit https://beautyunseen.org